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[herocomplex]

.. Yeah, I know what you mean.

_{[ Ah. His tone sounds a little more serious. He leans back against the couch cushions and folds his hands behind his head. ]}

I used to date someone here, but then he went away, so.. I got really used to having someone with me all the time even though it was kind of a big step for me to date someone.

It sucks getting attached and then.. not having that, I guess.

[immature]

[he thinks of Kirishima, and even Karma. Osomatsu was certainly not dating them, but man... did he get attached]

It's probably stupid to get feelings for anyone, huh? There's no guarantee they'll stick around.

[herocomplex]

_{[ Osomatsu getting real here.
America frowns again before raking his hand through his blond hair. ]}

I mean.. I've kinda felt that way my whole life. Everyone else dies so easily, but I'm still here.. getting attached to people and then seeing them die.. decade after decade...

But also, getting attached to people is just.. a part of who you are. A part of who I am. It just kinda happens and can't really be helped, you know?

[immature]

[hmmm... sorry, he's just moping. Osomatsu drinks some more, considering America's words]

Guess not.

[a pause, then he turns to give him a sad smile]

Sorry about bringin' the mood down. I just haven't really talked to anyone about this stuff lately.

[herocomplex]

Oh, dude. I don't mind. I kinda crashed France's place a few weeks ago talking about stuff that was like this. And if I have to do it, surely it's something expected for you to do too.

_{[ WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. ]}

I just hope I'm remembered even if people move on.. or whatevs.

[immature]

[remembered?]

Is that what you want? To be remembered?

[herocomplex]

Hmmm, yeah. I mean, I want a lot of other stuff, but being remembered.. that seems really great. I can't die, so.. I can't die a hero or anything like that.. which I wish I could do.

_{[ Sort of weird, but alright. ]}

So.. when people exit out of my life one way or another, I just hope they can remember me and how cool I am.

_{[ Finally, a soft smile appears. ]}

Anyway...

_{[ Anyway. ]}

Wanna do something fun that might lighten this heavy mood or you still wanna stay in it?

[immature]

[he wants to say something... America can't die? well, if he's a country, like Italy then... that makes sense. it's crazy to think about, though.

he decides to put a pin in that and... well, America wants to lighten the mood, so he'll let him. Osomatsu reaches for a snack, too]

...Yeah, we can do that. Do something fun, I mean.

[herocomplex]

_{[ It's complicated, okay? Weird nation immortality.. something he doesn't want to get into right now.
America shifts so he's facing Osomatsu a little better and leans in, closing the space between them, but not actually touching him yet. ]}

We can make out a little bit.. and if you wanna proceed even further, that would be fun too! You just gotta let me know. I think you're pretty cute, and you were willing to take up my offer before, right?

So.. offer still stands..!

[immature]

[oh, right. that offer. that was before... uh, the other stuff happened, and Osomatsu had been weird and horny at the time]

You... wanna make out with me?

[he sounds surprised, actually]

[herocomplex]

_{[ America leans back a bit and tips his head to a shoulder. ]}

Uuuuh, yeah? I mean! Unless you don't wanna..
I'm not sure why you wouldn't want to though.

[immature]

[there are a few reasons... Osomatsu's trying not to think too hard about those reasons, though. he's sad, he's lonely, and America thinks he's cute and wants to make-out with him. that's great, right?

on the other hand, both times that Osomatsu's made-out with someone, it's ended up weird for him. he kissed Gintoki, then he slept with Mayuzumi. and now it's awkward for everyone.

after a moment, he sighs. he's just not in the right headspace for this!]

I'm flattered. Really. But I dunno that I'd be a good partner for you.

[herocomplex]

_{[ ?????????? ]}

What.. you scared I'm gonna not talk to you like that other guy? I guess that makes sense.. but! The idea is to do stuff like that here.. that's why we get rewarded for it!

_{[ Alfred sits back, now giving Osomatsu a little more space. He's never been too pushy with doing something like this especially if the person wasn't sure. ]}

Youuuu don't even wanna try and see what it's like? I mean, that's okay! We can just bro it out and watch something on TV if you want. I'm a big fan of movies.

[immature]

[he's so sorry. he's so unsure about everything]

I like movies! Maybe if we watch something together, I'll, uh, become less of a stick-in-the-mud.

[nervous laugh]

[herocomplex]

_{[ Bless his heart. ]}

I mean, I don't think you're a stick in the mud. You're going through a tough time! I remember I was pretty gloomy when my partner left too.

_{[ Only they were actually dating, but he gets it. People just not talking to someone after an intimate night.. he's been there. Not a good time. ]}

Wanna watch an action movie?
_{[ Or a scary movie.. which America wouldn't like. There's always porn, too. ]}

[immature]

[that perks him up... he's glad America isn't judging him]

Yeah, that sounds great!