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[ another message, that was enough to distract him from this thought. checking it, he reaches forward, opening the door and stepping in ]

America? Are you okay?

[ always with the concern first and foremost, letting the door quietly shut behind himself ]

Are you sure you have time if you have plans? Did you need help with something?

_{[ America is simply chilling on the couch-- he just didn't want to get up out of his seat. He's still in his formal wear from opening his business, though his tie is at least loosened. ]}

Yeah! Uh.. I just. I don't know. It's easier to hear your tone in person, you know? And see if you're joking or something, haha. Right? Anyway.. sit down if you want.

_{[ He exhales out, loosening his tie even more. ]}

You gotta tell me what it is you want, man. It's pretty obvious you've been all over me lately and it's kind of making me confused cause I thought you and Germany were like.. husband and wife all the time. I've talked to Germany about it too, but he's just like _{[ fake Germany accent ]} 'nein, ve are just good friends' _{[ end Germany accent ]} and it makes me just wonder..

What the hell are you two? Do you you even know he just thinks of you that way? And where do I fit into all of this, huh?

[ it's okay america, he understands, no judgment here. though it's good to see he's okay, was just in chill mode. but there was this interesting sort of opener, hearing his tone in person? he figures that's just a thing some people are more used to.

taking a seat across from america there was just the curious look as he watches this--this is normal wigging out, making note. but it was an atmosphere so far wasn't it? ]

All over...? [ taking a moment to stop and think, he crosses his arms and looks up at the ceiling while slightly bouncing back and forth trying to figure this out. though as america goes on, there's the fluster that rises slowly but surely.

he's always doing this, isn't he? with the accents? no, no... don't focus on that. instead there's just the look with his mouth open for a moment, then leaning back with his hand to his cheek, and then open again... ]

I'm sorry, I...?

[ this has been happening hasn't it? it's not something he thought he'd have to explain so much. ]

America... You are aware we're both men, right?

[ all joking aside though, there's that slight lean forward ]

I'm glad the two of you have gotten to talk it seems, it's very assuring actually. But that aside, didn't he explain that it was a mutual conversation?

[ there was a rub of his head, looking away some to avoid direct eye contact ]

That time in the kitchen was after a misunderstanding... We've just been good friends from the beginning and we continue to be good friends, we care about each other greatly but know that it's not much more than that. It's okay if we rely on each other in... certain ways because we trust each other a lot.

[ a glance back to america, he gives a small sigh before waving his hand ]

So it's okay if he thinks of me as a friend, that's all I want from him. He's someone I care about a lot and I want to see him happy, and I think that means finding somebody that's got a lot more than what I can offer.

[ why do these situations make him so nervous, it's always like an interrogation. tilting his head, he leans back more to rest against the backing of the couch ]

I don't think I realized that... I'm sorry if you feel like I've been...? [ he wasn't sure, what was it? ] If you want me to stop being so close, I can. It's not like I'm looking for an overly romantic relationship or something like that...? The idea of that is actually pretty scary if I have to admit it--[ quickly he sits up and waves his hands ] N-not just because it's you, it's like that no matter who it is! I promise...

I like you, because you're pretty amazing, you know? I was just happy that we could get to be friends, so I didn't realize if I was crossing any boundaries you had. I love my close friends dearly, but it's very different than being in love--you understand, right?

'Kay, good. 'Cause I'd beat his ass if you ever did anything to hurt you, like.. lead you on or make you think a certain way, but then be too much of a wussy to actually admit that he's not into you in that kinda way. Glad everything is mutual, then.

_{[ Oh, what? What was this? America crosses his arms, seeming rather adamant about this. ]}

You get what I mean? Sorry to assume otherwise, it's just, you two have always been close and I'm right most of the time, so.. y'know. It's a valid assumption for me to make.

_{[ He chews on the inside of his cheek and this would make his situation with Italy even worse if he didn't clarify right then and there. He exhales out, but his lips curve upwards. ]}

That's fine. It's actually what I wanted to hear.
I was just making sure you weren't falling for my awesome charm-- romantically-- and not telling me. Hahaha, that would... kind of suck.

_{[ Hm. Sort of a strange statement. ]}

[ upon hearing this kind of declaration, italy couldn't help but sit up properly now to give the other his full attention even though he felt that heat rise to his face again and the racing of his heart ]

A-ah, please... no, it's okay. He wouldn't do anything like that, Germany is very considerate of those things even if he's not used to them... that might be the reason why. Even from when he first kissed me he was worried about something like that, because of the timing I explained that it was the first time I've been kissed like that since my first love and I think he's misconstrued that to mean I'm still in love with him even if he's no longer around.

But I think that's fine, even if it's not really... It's a lot more complicated than that.

[ it's embarrassing talking about this, instead he just tries to smile it off before leaning in a little closer towards america. that subject was too much to get into details willingly honestly, because even if he pretends it's fine it's never just that ]

Germany and I have just always been close, we had a very different first encounter despite this he was the nicest anyone has been in that situation, even if he tried to get me to fight him constantly and I wouldn't do it. I think we were both pretty lonely, and that helped us to get along in the beginning. Germany is my person, and he has always protected me and even though I don't look like much I would do the same for him.

[ no, wait, too much gushing--get to the point! get to the point! ]

I'd also protect you too, because I have a lot of respect for your honesty and just general way of being. I know sometimes it's not easy for us to understand each other because we have differences... But I still appreciate you. There is definitely a certain charm that's very drawing, but I'll try to contain myself if I should be overcome with intense romantic notions.

[ for the time being he keeps his distance, as much as could be done on the couch anyway, as he gives the blond a warm smile ]

Thank you... for looking out for me, even if the idea of me being in love with you seemed like something less than ideal.

Wow. This sounds like.. some legit Dr. Phil stuff going on with you and Germany. I didn't think it was that complicated. Just.. 'hey I like pasta' and 'hey I like potatoes' and they go great together so let's get married. Or something like.. 'I'm super duper weak and I need a strong buff man' and 'here I am, I'm a strong buff man.'

_{[ He pops his lips together, falling quiet as he tries to dissect each part of what Italy was saying. ]}

Hey, uh, no problem. But you know.. you'd tell me if you were like.. I don't know. Getting all Italian-gay on me, right? You seem like a no-nonsense guy when it comes to stuff like this, but I don't know. Sometimes people don't want to talk about it and I'd rather just.. know instead of guessing 'cause someone is being nice to me.

... I think feelings tend to get a little more complicated than that, America. Though I suppose it is true that I'm drawn to strength in both men and women... [ thinking on this ] In any case, I think that you can rest assured that we have always been friends and continue to be friends.

[ a tilt of the head, italy pulls back some with his arms crossed over his chest to further reflect ]

Is it really so weird that people just want to be nice to you though? Besides, what if I do tell you something one day? What would happen? It doesn't necessarily mean that something would come of it, wouldn't it be better to just leave it unsaid instead of having you needlessly worry about something so trivial? I mean, regardless, at this moment I like you a lot and am aware of my limits and that's enough for me.

It gives us a chance to enjoy ourselves without having to worry if you're going to hurt me or the other way around.

No, it isn't weird at all.. it's just.. something kind of unexpected on my front. I know sometimes people think I'm a jerk.

_{[ Oh, look at him. Admitting some truth. At the rest of what Italy says, America chews on the side of his tongue, one of his legs bouncing up and down a bit anxiously. ]}

I guess it's just something I'd like to know than just.. worrying about the prospect about it anyway, you know? I can't help it, man. I worry about what people think of me.. probably a bit too much.

_{[ There's also the whole idea of having a romance with someone who is his own species, someone where mortality isn't an issue-- someone he couldn't lose, so maybe he'd like to know if there's a chance where he could have something like that, though he's not ready to say that yet.

Geez. He's really admitting some vulnerability here as it is. ]}

Hmm... I think, it’s like sometimes you can be a lot and others don’t know how to handle it. But I wouldn’t necessarily say it impacts who you are as a whole, because there are other parts that you show as well. At times you can be very... charming, and that’s a lot to handle too, but in a good way.

[ taking in what the other has to say, italy thinks it over carefully. in this instance he could understand the feeling and the need behind it. pulling his legs up on the couch now he shifts and moves to close that distance to be face to face with america ]

This has been one of the most pleasant conversations I’ve had recently on this subject you know. I think this is the first one where it hasn’t been an accusation or a straight interrogation, and honestly after a talk I had last week I was very... scared, I guess?

But because you’ve probably been one of the most upfront and understanding... I’d be willing to admit to you if something more starts to develop for me. You don’t have to change the way you talk to or treat me if that happens though, because I really don’t expect anyone to feel the same way... but for now, you can be assured that I like you a lot.

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