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[hm]

It's fine! I'm wearing shorts!

[but he does bring over all of the snacks. the drinks are still cold since he just bought them. he hands that bag to America, while setting out the various snacks on the table in front of them]

_{[ HM INDEED. ]}

Suit yourself! But if you ever feel like you wanna get more comfortable and take'em off, go for it.

_{[ A beat. ]}

Or I can do it for ya.

_{[ WITH A WINK. A monster. ]}

Oh, right.. you said you wanted to talk about something? Something stressful?

[Osomatsu is a little surprised by the offer. but he really shouldn't be, considering this was the guy trying to solicit people on the network for... charity...

he's still not that used to being hit on]

Mmn... I guess it's more like I'm stressed, yanno? Not that anything stressful has really happened...

Sort of.

Hahaha, oh god. Okay, bro, I gotta tell you straight up. I supes suck at communicating, so, I don't "know." You gotta spell it out for me! Tell me what's really up.

_{[ At least he's self aware. With that, America opens the bag he was given and sticks his nose inside to see what's in it. ]}

[oh... Osomatsu puffs out his cheeks, and blows out air, making a pbbbthtbth sound]

...Right, sorry. That's my bad. I'm tryin' t'be vague and it's not working.

[he inhales. the garlic scent from the bag America just opened is good and strong!]

...I haven't told anyone else this. But... I kinda... finally had sex here. For the first time. Actually, no, I didn't kind of. I did, plain and simple.

Not really, it's just I'm really bad at that, haha.

_{[ For once, America is just going to blame himself here. Whatever snack he has, it certainly does smell good in his opinion, so he's just going to dig right in, smiling brightly at what Osomatsu says. ]}

Dude, that's great! Why are you acting funny about it? It's just sex. It doesn't mean you gotta marry the person or anything.

[UH. that's quite a mouthful America says there.

"it's just sex."]

It was my first time! And it was... I wasn't expecting it to happen. The guy that it happened with, we don't talk a lot, we didn't plan it. We were both, uh, not ourselves.

_{[ America still doesn't understand what the big deal is, but he tilts his head to one of his shoulders, trying to grasp what Osomatsu is saying. ]}

Sounds kinda familiar. I mean, when I came here, I was a virgin too.. and the guy I slept with I barely knew, but it's just kind of how this place operates so I found it to be alright.. nothing to feel guilty about.

_{[ Except that one part. ]}

Not yourselves? Like weirdo moon influence?

[a stiff nod. Osomatsu reaches for a drink. a non alcoholic drink, just some fizzy juice]

Mmn, it was when those tattoos showed up? I got one where I was, like, basically horny and needy all the time. It was worse than the moon cycle.

Oh yeah! The Astella and Ostella stuff. I read a bunch about that cause I saw it as an opportunity to rake in some extra cash.

Well.. don't feel bad about it, man. It might be a little weird, but weird stuff like that happens all the time here. I'm sure your partner understands.

Do you talk or nah?

[Osomatsu looks distant]

Haven't talked to him since.

[and that's partially why he's upset. he wonders... was he okay? was he a bad partner? he wasn't even himself at the time, it was like he was much more confident and sexy. and now, he's not like that anymore]

Well.

_{[ Hmmm. ]}

Haha, I don't think that has to be entirely a bad thing either! Just like a one night stand, right? There's not that awkwardness that ensues after the fact, but.. I guess it is kind of shitty if it was your first one. Hmm.

Maybe you were so good, it intimidated him!

_{[ Cause that's what America would think since he's so arrogant. ]}

[Osomatsu sips at his drink, but doesn't say anything in response. he hates feeling this way. sex had been fun, but he wished that it had been with...

well...

that didn't matter, they were gone now.

what matters is that it happened. he shouldn't feel bummed about it! but he is]

Mmn.

_{[ Ooooh. Oh no. The silent treatment. It's kind of childish behavior, but America recognizes it, cause this is how he acts sometimes too. He finally frowns a little and scoots over so he can close the distance between them. ]}

Hee-eeey. It'll be alright! Like, I'm not sure what you're so bummed about, but it will be, okay?

_{[ Oh. He rubs his back comfortingly. ]}

... I mean.. did you like-him like-him at the end of the day?

_{[ Cause he could understand it being a bigger issue if that were the case. ]}

[oh. he's a bit surprised. Osomatsu did not want to talk about this at all but... it's kind of nice to talk to America about it, for some reason. to get it off his chest. they're around the same age............. give or take a few hundred years. but they've also got a little bit in common.

and America is just easy to talk to, in general, even if they don't know each other well]

I... dunno. It's not like I hate him, but we're not... close. At all. I think he's seeing someone else, even.

Edited 2020-08-23 04:25 (UTC)

Oooh.

_{[ He frowns a little at that. He knows what it feels like to think someone likes you and then.. maybe they don't? Maybe that's the kind of feeling that Osomatsu is going through right now. ]}

Well. I mean, his loss, then. I don't know you very well, but I think you're kinda fun!

And cute.

I am fun... and cute. That’s true.

[he nods to himself, but he’s half-teasing]

I just... it feels like I didn’t make a difference, or anything. It was fun at the time, but I’m still, uh... lonely? I guess.

.. Yeah, I know what you mean.

_{[ Ah. His tone sounds a little more serious. He leans back against the couch cushions and folds his hands behind his head. ]}

I used to date someone here, but then he went away, so.. I got really used to having someone with me all the time even though it was kind of a big step for me to date someone.

It sucks getting attached and then.. not having that, I guess.

[he thinks of Kirishima, and even Karma. Osomatsu was certainly not dating them, but man... did he get attached]

It's probably stupid to get feelings for anyone, huh? There's no guarantee they'll stick around.

_{[ Osomatsu getting real here.
America frowns again before raking his hand through his blond hair. ]}

I mean.. I've kinda felt that way my whole life. Everyone else dies so easily, but I'm still here.. getting attached to people and then seeing them die.. decade after decade...

But also, getting attached to people is just.. a part of who you are. A part of who I am. It just kinda happens and can't really be helped, you know?

[hmmm... sorry, he's just moping. Osomatsu drinks some more, considering America's words]

Guess not.

[a pause, then he turns to give him a sad smile]

Sorry about bringin' the mood down. I just haven't really talked to anyone about this stuff lately.

Oh, dude. I don't mind. I kinda crashed France's place a few weeks ago talking about stuff that was like this. And if I have to do it, surely it's something expected for you to do too.

_{[ WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. ]}

I just hope I'm remembered even if people move on.. or whatevs.

[remembered?]

Is that what you want? To be remembered?

Hmmm, yeah. I mean, I want a lot of other stuff, but being remembered.. that seems really great. I can't die, so.. I can't die a hero or anything like that.. which I wish I could do.

_{[ Sort of weird, but alright. ]}

So.. when people exit out of my life one way or another, I just hope they can remember me and how cool I am.

_{[ Finally, a soft smile appears. ]}

Anyway...

_{[ Anyway. ]}

Wanna do something fun that might lighten this heavy mood or you still wanna stay in it?

[he wants to say something... America can't die? well, if he's a country, like Italy then... that makes sense. it's crazy to think about, though.

he decides to put a pin in that and... well, America wants to lighten the mood, so he'll let him. Osomatsu reaches for a snack, too]

...Yeah, we can do that. Do something fun, I mean.

Edited 2020-08-27 22:21 (UTC)

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